I guess everyone thinks that they're different.
I wish I wasn't. I've stumbled over the fact time and time again.
Countless people who took their time and are reaping the benefits.
They're completely happy in blindly believing that the one they're with is the one they'll enjoy forever. How can you believe that now? How can I?
Ladies my age have children, Not just one but multiple... and all I see is proof of happiness. I don't doubt their hardship. Not at all.... but the proof of joy is there. Why is it so hard for me? I don't close it out. I love in fear. I love regardless of fear.

Truth be told there is no blame for question, when I am full of questions. Sometimes the problem is the answer, and sometimes the alleged answer is really just the problem in the first place. I figured that out today. Without my answer, there would be no problem. A bittersweet and unsatisfying conclusion.

I speak in riddles, but it's only fitting for such a complex series of events.

When closer means farther,
When deeper means distant
When talking leads to silence,

----gotta get back to work.